Wits end.

The day started off late. It was warm, tropical even, and the breeze from the window that Justin had left open was ever so slightly tickling my face to wake me. He had apparently been up since 9ish, and was downstairs quietly playing video games. The day before I had babysat my 7 month old niece for 14 hours. I was tired. Especially after he made a full course meal when I arrived back home that evening at 9pm. Complete with twice baked potato, charred to perfection flank steak and a bottle of red wine. This man knows the way to my heart. Let me tell you.
So why was it, that on a perfect Sunday, did I basically ruin the day by being grumpy? I'm a woman? I'm hormonal? I was still tired? Maybe all of those things. But one thing I realized as the day progressed was that it wasn't because of him.
I'd snap back saying things like "why do you always pick on me", "why do you always have to be right", "you'd argue with me about the color of the sky today, wouldn't you". That was just my mood. Nothing I did was correct or right and everything he did was. He took me to lunch, the most delicious burger I've had in, well, years. And as we sat in the sunshine enjoying our Sunday, I STILL didn't snap out of my funk and appreciate what was happening in front of me.
The day ended with a 6 mile bike ride, where Justin pulled the cart holding our niece and nephew, he rode it up the hill so his sister didn't have to. He cleaned up the dishes and the table after our brother-in-law made us homemade pizza. And he helped me get the kids ready for bed while his mom went down the street to get ice cream for everyone. He let me watch whatever I wanted on TV when we got home and gave me the space I needed to relax for the night.
And it wasn't until just this moment that I realized how ungrateful I was. How taken-for-granted he probably feels. So, I write today just so he knows, I love him for everything little thing he does. And next time I'm grumpy, I will laugh at his jokes, and let him argue with me about the color of the sky. Because having him by my side everyday of my life is ALL I will ever need to keep me happy.